It has been a long time since I updated this but I have not felt a need in a while. The prompt for this post comes from music and remembrance of old.
I sit here and wait for I cannot shake the feeling in my head. My eyes bulge with past visions of what could have been and could still be. The unknown of the future and the past. I sit in my room alone with visions of the past and how nostalgic thoughts wreck the brain. This is one of those few times I understand history and why it has been taught throughout the ages. The longing for things, and the decisions that possibly changed for good or bad. I quickly put a play list together for this post and I will put it at the end of this but it was for my own nostalgic purposes, it was the random songs that somehow I have a nostalgic response to and remind me of times past.
Why does nostalgic things wreck from the heart to the brain? Why do these simple thoughts from the past make my heart beat faster and myself as a whole get nervous? I always ask so many questions in my few blogs so far but I believe I have an answer for these. It's because of possible differences that could have occurred during those times, what could have been woven into time instead. It is also because of how close these times were to us. The emotions we had during them, the drive, want, and need that made us make these decisions. What arises though is if it has passed do I regret some of these decisions? In hindsight some may have been done differently but the end result would be the same.
Remembering the times of old is like remembering the bests parts of yourself and the longing of some of the individuals that are not around you anymore. The people and friends that you wish you had kept into contact with before time had caught up and it is not possible anymore. Whose fault in the end was it? Both from my understanding. Separate paths were chosen and even if you were very close to that person you drifted apart. Is that how it is to be until the end of my time? Do I just keep getting new friends and discarding the ones that helped me through so many different times? I really want to get back in touch with so many people but some are gone forever and others might as well be. When my life changes others change around me? Or is it the other way around. I wish for this nostalgic feeling to leave me because I do not like it and have no idea how to suppress it. Maybe I should call up somebody I have not seen in a long time and get together for lunch? Do I really miss these people that much? Would I even care if I talked to them again? I tried that a while ago and realized again why I stopped hanging out with that person.
Maybe this rant means something maybe it does not. Crossing the line might make someone go back to normal but this urge will go away soon and I will forget about these people.
As I said I would post the play list.
I Don't Want to Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
We Are - Ana
Black Nights - ATB
Adam's Song - Blink 182
The Birds and The Bees - Breathe Carolina
Everytime We Touch - Cascada
Listen to your Heart - DHT
Brain Stew - Green Day
Hanging By a Moment - Lifehouse
Reach - Lo-Pro
Last Summer- Lost Prophets
Backmask - Mindless Self Indulgence
Stop And Stare - OneRepublic
Youth of the Nation - P.O.D
Disarm - Smashing Pumpkins
The Other Side - Smile Empty Soul
The Going Rate - Thornley
Baba O'Riley - The Who
The Kill - 30 seconds to mars
